Where Are We Now?

I fell off the blog wagon...again! I know, I'm terrible. But here I am sitting on a stoop in the rain gathering my thoughts and feelings. It feels as though life has been nonstop. If you didn't know already, I am no longer in Italy, I am "home" in Canada ("home" because I don't know where home is at the moment) and I am lucky enough to have two jobs (correction, only one now) that I was able to snag within two weeks of being home. My missing Italy never stops, the people, the food, the beautiful places to discover. It's crazy to think I've spent two years of my life in another country that I only saw in the movies as a child. I have my very own Italian stallion (sounds like a collectable or something) and a group of Italians that are more like family than friends. It's incredible, the power of choice. It's all about choice and choice leads you on your great adventures. There are upsides and downsides to being home and I'm sure many expats and travellers can relate. Personally, even though I do it enough, I don't enjoy travelling as much as it seems. I love arriving, but I'm not a fan of the transitional phase. It stresses me out and I get extremely anxious! So once I've arrived at one of my homes, I don't want to leave, I want to stay put! Also, especially once I'm home in Canada, things are automatically easier for a plethora of reasons, one being the lack of a language barrier. I miss being able to communicate easily with almost everyone. These are the things I begin to take for granted after I've been home for awhile. But as always, there's a flip side to that because when I'm in Italy, I quite enjoy the challenge of keeping up with what people are saying and immersing myself into another language.

I must admit that a couple of months have passed since I wrote the paragraph above. Truth be told my inspiration was lacking and the drive was non-existent. I know that people don't want to hear the sad truth, but that's it right there!

I want to vow to try harder, I want to publish content and keep people happy!

As I sit here, not on a stoop, in my mom's dining room as it turns out, there are many questions I am faced with. It's normal at this age, I suppose. I don't know many people who have the answer to where they're going (literally and metaphorically) but I do know that I am incredibly lucky. I not only have a life in Canada, I also have a life that I need to live in Italy. At this moment in time I am unsure of the shape this blog will take, which is exciting and nerve wracking all at once. But I do hope you, my reader, follow along for the adventure to find out!

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